| Was S.E.P. a
mind-control training camp to facilitate teens into becoming Ambassador
College1 students and followers of the
Worldwide Church of
God? I
want to recount to those that weren't there what actually went on during those
weeks at "God's camp."
Preparation for
S.E.P.
S.E.P. (Summer
Education Program) was depicted to church kids as a wonderful,
life-changing adventure that every teen needed to attend at least once.
To parents it was described as "enriching lives and developing the
whole person"; "quality training for the pioneers of the
wonderful World Tomorrow." S.E.P. was only available to kids that
were children of members in the WCG and monetary assistance seemed to
always be available for families that couldn't afford it. The
recommendation was that the teen not be too young so he/she "would
get more out of it." Those that did attend at a younger age, say
thirteen, commonly attended twice.
The Camp Staff:
The camp administrative staff at S.E.P.
was made up of Ambassador College
faculty members and the dorm counselors were all AC students. They made
sure we felt like we belonged to a "little
family" while we were there. As a child who was away from home for a
month, it was comforting to have those
feelings, but it was very
difficult to break those bonds when it was time to leave.
There are some things that I
thought were strange at the time, but I didn't question. You didn't
normally question your counselors on camp procedures. You were expected
to cooperate and be a "happy camper." I recall being told
during a
Friday night Bible study in our dorm that we were to be
"teachable." Actually, it really wasn't a Bible study. We
didn't study the Bible. We studied WCG literature written by HWA, such
as "The Seven Laws of Success," "The Ten
Commandments," and "The Wonderful World Tomorrow - What It
Will Be Like."
Prayer Closets:
Something that bothers me now
is the "prayer closets" we had in each dorm. One for each wing
of the building. They were actual closets with a chair and a light,
which were to be used by the campers for praying. What I remember is
that you were encouraged often to go in there, and during dorm meetings
those who made use of them were named and praised. Then, anyone who
hadn't made use of them was admonished. The matter of discussing prayer
and a relationship with God was not the focus. It was the act of being
seen using the prayer closets that brought recognition. This trained us
to recognize those who outwardly showed their works. In spite of all
this, I have to wonder if maybe they could have had video or listening
devices in the prayer closets. There was just an overall feeling
of being monitored somehow.
Military Rules:
There were many rules to follow
as a camper that were almost military style. You had bed check (where
they actually checked your hospital corners and bounced a quarter on
your blanket), there was locker check (where your locker had to be
sorted a certain way and you were made to do it over if it was
incorrect). Each dorm had to take their turn cleaning up the dining
hall; wiping tables and benches, etc. and sweeping. Also, there was a
large bathhouse for the girls and one for the boys' area. Each dorm had
to take their turn cleaning their bathhouse, scrubbing sinks, toilets,
the shower and mopping the floor.
Dining was done mess hall style
in the dining hall. You marched together as a dorm to meals and were not
allowed to sit at another table with someone else you were friends with.
We had to sit family style at one large table and stay in our own group.
We even had contests between dorms as we marched to and from mealtimes
or activities to see who could sing the loudest. We were taught these
little marching songs like you hear people singing in the Army.
All activities had to be done
with your group only and you were expected to participate. No
"opting out" allowed. I remember being terrified the day we
went rock climbing because I am very afraid of heights. I went up the
cliff and rappelled down it though, because I didn't want to be singled
out as having a bad attitude and not willing to try. Effort was very
important.
We also had "service
projects" and we didn't get a choice whether we wanted to do them.
We had to work around the grounds and a particular service project I
remember was helping to make the new softball field. We had to move sand
with shovels. What comes to mind now is slave labor.
Dress Code:
Before you left for S.E.P. you
were given a long list that showed what you could pack and what you
should leave home. After you arrived at camp you were supposed to wear a
sort of uniform consisting
of a camp tee shirt (blue or white) and khaki or denim shorts
(mid-thigh). When HWA changed the makeup doctrine, makeup was not
allowed and neither were two piece swimsuits. Boys couldn't have long
hair, low-cut trunks or muscle shirts and could only go shirtless when they
swam.
On Saturday you had to dress up for church (dresses and pantyhose;
suit and tie) even though it was really hot in the summer. You stayed
dressed up all day until after dinner. Then you could change into
whatever you wanted to wear to the dances that they had every Saturday
night. But no dress lengths above the knee and no low-cut dresses.
Highly
Structured:
There was
occasional free time; however, the days mostly consisted of a busy and
highly structured schedule which, many times, we had to rush to meet. We
reviewed our schedule in the morning before breakfast and we marched
from one activity to the next.
Free time was scheduled every
couple of days in the evening and on Saturday after church services. You
would have an hour or so to walk around (within parameters), write
letters home or make a phone call home from the phone booth. We would
have a movie once or twice in the gymnasium on a weekday evening. You
had to sit in rows of chairs with your particular group. There was no
television or outside newspapers, magazines or local radio channels.
Actually, they had their own camp radio station with approved music and
WCG broadcasts. We were allowed usually only one trip into town to pick
up souvenirs or treats. We went together in our group and had about an
hour to shop. We had a group discussion before we left to be careful of
our behavior because the townspeople were always very impressed with our
manners and polite attitude.
Proper
Attitude:
The proper S.E.P. attitude was
"happy, smiling, teachable and cooperative." You made
an extra special effort to be happy and not to be a troublemaker and to
act like the other kids in your dorm.
Those who were not cooperative were sent home. I recall a girl who was
probably 16 or 17 who was sent to camp as an "attitude adjustment
exercise" by her parents because she had been caught smoking at
home. The idea was to address her smoking habit by having her learn the
"yes ma'am and no ma'am" or "yes sir or no sir" WCG
way of life away from home. She was treated very sternly by the dorm
counselors from the beginning. They had been informed of her problem and
they actually monitored her attitude very closely and reported on her
behavior periodically to the camp administration. They, in turn,
reported her behavior to her local minister. When she resisted being
monitored she was actually sent home in tears. She came in and got her
things together and was taken by our dorm counselors to the
administration building to await transportation home. She was not
allowed to say goodbye to any of us in our dorm.
HWA's Flyby:
HWA made an appearance during
camp sessions by doing a flyby in his Lear Jet. This was a much
anticipated event by the S.E.P. camp staff and was played up as much as
possible. Campers and staff were assembled outside the dining hall. We had to
stand out there for a good hour waiting for the main event and were told
to wave and smile when HWA flew by. This was WCG training to view HWA as
our leader. It trained us to smile and show our WCG cheer. He did seem
larger than life and kind of untouchable as he came out of the clouds
and tipped his wing at us while we gazed up expectantly. The sun
glinting on the airplane gave it a shimmery, streaky quality and they
told us he flew several hours out of his way to at least fly overhead to
say, "Hello." As HWA was sighted we all clapped and cheered, smiling and
waving as he graced our presence for a few seconds. Later, we were told
by our dorm counselors to write home about the wonderful event of seeing
HWA. Whether or not you considered watching his airplane flying by as
wonderful had no bearing. You were supposed to be inspired, therefore
you wrote home about the "inspiring event."
Bedtime:
They always did bring you into the
family structure at bedtime. We were told by our AC counselors to look
at them as "big sisters" or "big brothers." When
everyone was tucked in for the night they would come around and kiss and
hug each camper and ask if they'd prayed for HWA and his ministry.
Never, did they ask if you prayed to God and thanked Him for Jesus'
sacrifice. Never a word about Jesus, only HWA and his calling. They
talked a lot about HWA and his "end time work," but never once
discussed Jesus or being saved by grace. It was always about being
"teachable" enough to be baptized and become a member. Also, a
lot of encouraging to "check out" the benefits of going to AC
-- all the while letting you know it was a "tough" selection
process and you had to "measure up" to AC standards to be
considered as a prospective student. I believe now that much of S.E.P.
camp was a selection process in itself to identify kids with the right
attitude and encourage them to look to AC for college. And from there
they would become tithe-paying members in the Worldwide Church of God.
Culture Shock
Back Home:
Sure, the activities and meeting new people were a lot of fun and the
camp staff friendly. I left with lots of good memories from the kids I
met there and wouldn't have considered it a terrible experience. On the other hand,
I remember having a really strange feeling of culture shock when I got
home. It lasted the rest of the summer -- this feeling of not quite
fitting in at home. My attitude was different somehow and I wasn't
comfortable anymore with my place inside my family. I remember having
strong feelings of alienation when any of my siblings had any kind of a
disagreement, no matter how slight, because they weren't happy and
cooperating with the authority of my parents. I remember not knowing
what to do with myself with all this free time on my hands the rest of
the summer. My life wasn't scheduled anymore. I kept having "yes
ma'am and no sirs" slipping out to my parents or at church and it
shocked my family. I was also meticulous with keeping my room neat the
rest of that summer. I did my youth correspondence courses
(Y.O.U.) on my own without my mother having to make me study. I prayed
daily for HWA and his ministry. It was such a strange feeling to not
feel like I belonged in my own family anymore. The feeling didn't wear
off until I returned to school in the fall and got back into my normal
routine. I was a different person when I went home. I was now
thinking about wanting to go to Ambassador College and join the
"end time work. Had I, and thousands of other teens, actually
undergone mind control programming during their stay at S.E.P.? I'm
sure that we did.
By Sandra - Child Survivor of WCG
Footnote by ESN:
1 While
Ambassador College was founded by
Herbert Armstrong to specifically train men for the
ministry ("Who May Attend Our Schools?" Good
News, March 1958),
young women who attended usually ended up marrying someone from the
college.
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