Boy, I was glad to find this site. Actually,
my mother found it for me, but in all honesty a friend of
mine sent me the link about three years ago when I first joined
the Living Church of God. But
I was too brainwashed by that time for it to do any good.
I was a member for three years. I thought that I was the happiest I'd ever
been in my life, but I was only becoming more and more isolated and
unapproachable by family and friends outside the "church." Naturally,
having "proved" everything, I tried to tithe correctly, although I'm
on financial assistance, which is barely enough to live on.
Since my entire family were (and are) "of the world," I began seeing
them as evil and stopped trusting them entirely, and I isolated myself
at work. I didn't give any "trouble" to the ministry by asking too
many questions, etc., and tried my best to be a "model Christian" by
attending all the Feast days, etc. I actually
believed all
that stuff!
Then, last Spring, I began having
symptoms of paranoia, which is the early sign of a psychosis (I'm
bi-polar with psychotic episodes, being a kidney transplant patient on
Prednisone, Imuran, and Cyclosporine, and all can have dangerous
side effects, including mood swings, paranoia, psychosis, etc.), and I was
advised by my minister not to go to see my
psychiatrist. A couple of months later, I went to visit my
cousin in Canada, she being the closest to me in thinking at the time. While I was there, I became so psychotic that my cousin and her
husband had to take me to the hospital, and I was there for three
months. If I'd gone to my psychiatrist in the first place, I wouldn't
have had to be committed!
Since coming home,
I've decided to leave the Living Church of God, which my family
is very happy about. However, I haven't written my "resignation
letter" yet, and I'm scared of losing friends in the "church," the
lake of fire, and the "great tribulation." (Every time I listen to the
news, I think that the end is coming, thanks to Rod Meredith.) I
can't even pray now, because I feel so
isolated, cut off, and alone. Also, I can't help feeling that I've
let God down somehow, although the rational side of me knows that
isn't true, none of it. I'm really struggling with myself right now, although I
do have a social worker who knows quite a
bit about the Living Church of God and its
brainwashing techniques,
which really does help. I'm only starting to break free of the snare
of lies, which are so many, but it's a start. Now, all I have to do
is write my "resignation letter" to the Living Church of God as soon as
possible, which will take a lot of courage!
Yours in Christ,
By
Alyssa
June 7, 2006
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