| I must have ignored a lot when I
was in the
Worldwide
Church of God, because I know that I didn't give my heart and soul to
them in the first place. I see now how I was prone to be drawn to the
WCG partly because of my own upbringing (which I would say was not
traditional) and also because the time that I started listening to
Herbert was also a very vulnerable time in my life. Once I started
attending WCG I just did what Mr. Armstrong said: READ YOUR OWN BIBLE.
Good advice in itself and, of course, which eventually led to me leave
altogether. For that I give God the glory.
I learned to love God at a
young age and have been protected by Him, I am sure. Satan tried to do a
number on me and it must have looked like to him he succeeded. I've
never lost faith in my Savior, even though I asked why this happened,
and told Him I had prayed to be delivered from confusion.1 For a time I
was sorely tempted and even was angry with God. I knew that. I think the
key to understanding is that it's all His timetable. The biggest
challenge for me with my experience with the WCG is how I have had to disassociate
from them whom I tried to fellowship with for so many years and to walk
away with almost no
friends.
I have learned to leave things
to God and on His desk. Nothing happens that doesn't cross His desk.
True words....and the first time I heard them was in the WCG. Now I
realize it didn't originate with them, and their meaning certainly isn't
diminished by the obnoxious use of them. Time does heal, and slowly I
see God working and making me stronger in Him through all of this.
Another thing I've had to come
to terms with is mainstream Christians--and there are many and some in
leadership positions who feel they can "help." I guess they
mean well and some of them think they have all the answers, or at least
more than they really do, but so did I at one time. I thought I knew
more than I did. I don't need to snuff at what God has really done and
taught me and it sure is a lot. As time goes on, I get even more excited
about Him and his ultimate purpose and plan for my life and for mankind.
By Allison
January 19, 2003
Footnote:
1 Confusion is a
result of the mind control that WCG survivors endured.
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