Faith

I entered this world with water splashed in my face
I was told as an infant I am now under grace 

They prayed before statues and took daily bread
As a vulnerable child, many things through my head

Who were these idols and what do they mean?
They must be gods, I thought as a teen

I confessed to a man whom they called a priest
He made me feel bad to say the least

I cried on Christmas every single year
Locked in the bathroom spilling with tears

Why were they drunk and missing the birth?
Nobody cared and gave him His worth

Something was wrong as my heart screamed out
It’s time to go now, without a doubt¹

I left the nest to escape my pain
Off to the military to make the gain

After a few years, it came by surprise
The Holy Spirit filled me and opened my eyes

My thoughts, my dreams, were transformed that night
I had new love and knew it was right

I had to find church to show I was true
I went to a chaplain where I came unglued

He sent me away and thought I was a nut
Really discouraged, I still followed my gut

Then it came, The Worldwide Church
It was finally over, no more to search

Yes, I found it. My calling at last!
Nothing mattered in my whole lifetime past

The "truth" was given as a secret to me
They told me God rules and who I should be

I listened and learned, knowing I was elect
After a long story, I ended up a wreck

Crushed by "Elijah" who broke me to pieces
How can men lie when the pain increases?

The fear they instilled was so destructive
How did they think it was being constructive?

Fear filled their pockets with stolen money
Taken from nice ladies whom they called "honey"

Another lesson learned, another broken heart
Here I was again, searching for a start²

I found an apostle with the key of life³
Nobody believed me, not my family or wife

Give them up, throw everything away
If you don’t, God will cast you astray

Go with Flurry, he is under God’s wing
Come with us, don’t think and just sing

Ask no questions and stay in fear
Send in more money and you’ll have God’s ear

At the very last minute, I was saved again
And, of course, as before, it was from MEN⁴

My doubts were in bloom with my heart in hand
Where is the truth, I can’t understand

I needed God’s face, some proof of Him
Again, where to look, and where to begin?

I found some people, some people who share
I am now not alone, but with people who care

It was you, dear ones, angels of grace
You helped me so much and became my base

I was feeling alone and ready to fall
You told me I’m a victim and should start to crawl

Crawl to the truth and DO NOT RUN
I learned this the hard way; it’s not fun

Let Him guide you through thick and thin
There’s no way around it, the only way to win⁵

After looking and looking all throughout life
I struggled and struggled, filled with strife

Where was He? Who is He? Why all the pain?
I now know the answer; the pain was my gain

He was not up in Heaven and not far away
He was there right beside me and still is today

Why did this happen? I do not know
I know He is trying and making me grow

Freedom has come, but the pain is still here
But He has been with me in every tear

No need to be scared, I can now walk through fire
Mighty, Mighty Christ, You are my Desire!⁶

Wherever I go next, I can trust as I walk
New rules to the game and I soar as a hawk

Freedom is here, rejoice and give praise!
Life is anew! No more fog and gray haze

                                                                 By MICHAEL

¹ Child Catholic
² Worldwide Church of God
³ Key of David is Gerald Flurry's TV program.
⁴ Philadelphia Church of God
⁵ Freedom
⁶ Freedom again

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